Sometimes we all wish
we were born under different circumstances, wondering
what if a small ripple affected the fabric of space-time
and the causality of nature took a slightly different
turn. Or perhaps there are multiverses, and every
possible outcome exists - in other times and places.
Born of a mother of little means, a victim of modern
society, a casualty of unfortunate circumstance, our
little protagonist is in for a rough ride in the
unforgiving and brutally immature civilization of the
2nd millennium where essentially everyone is on their
own. Not very different overall from the eat or be eaten
reality of prehistoric times.
The Johnsons and their ilk fit into their bourgeois
little corner of the universe quite neatly. They even
believe some of the finely crafted archaic mythology,
fine-tuned along the centuries to fit conveniently with
the mores of particular factions. Even what they
secretly do not believe must be buried deep in their
shallow ids so as to not dare stand out from the flock.
But on the surface, they seem very pleasant.
Marie was a much needed pleasant surprise to Mr. and
Mrs. Johnson after years of trying to conceive, but
shortly thereafter, Mr. Johnson’s career in the
limelight had come to a screeching halt. Being thrust
together into obscurity, the couple no longer had the
veil of inane diversions to filter the harsh light of
incompatibility. Seeking guidance from "the sisters
of the rosary", they thought Marie might just fill
the void.
But it turned out "Mr. Johnson wasn’t quite right,
ever since he lost the limelight" a few years ago.
In a temporary state of lucidity, our first hero in the
tale, Mrs. Johnson, feels the need to protect and to
tell Marie what she had been hiding from herself. Marie
feels a slight twinge of love for the first time, says
thank you with a kiss, and runs away.
Marie returns to gather the rest of her belongings. Mr.
Johnson is furious. Trying unsuccessfully to rekindle
what he thought was the lost love of his wife/concubine,
and in a twisted amalgam of feelings for Marie, Mr. J
gets his gun. Marie grabs a knife in the kitchen,
holding it out while protecting the missus, he trips and
falls right onto it. Now Marie is indubitably "on the
run"!
"Momma why did you leave me"? Marie can only
wonder at what she’ll never know as she finds herself
scared and alone in the underbelly of the big city.
Walking for what seems like an eternity in "old shoes
with broken laces", she is at once terrified and
fascinated with the bright lights and dark recesses of
the gritty metropolis. The lonely and tired presumed
felon sees "a wounded blackbird fly across the street"
and relates.
Several years pass and she eventually is holed up in her
newfound tribe’s hideaway, called “the shed” on "Mary
Jane Lane". But a "storm is coming" -
literally and metaphorically. Seeing she’s at another
dead end, she quits the gang. "She’s moved away...
doesn’t live here anymore".
Life "under the viaduct" leaves plenty of time
for contemplation. She likes to reminisce of her
temporary happiness as a child playing, running,
laughing real hard. She likes to imagine what her life
could have been like if she didn’t have to turn her lock
and leave it all. Her imaginary "children, a laugh, a
kiss... this too she shall miss".
Under "the Fullerton bridge" there was a large
stain on the concrete wall that some say was an
apparition of the Virgin Mary. A makeshift shrine was
erected by the faithful. This is where Marie would
panhandle and collect her coins, and sleep, "beneath
the spot where her dreams were slain". This is
where she did whatever she had to do to survive. This is
where she tried and became addicted to crystal meth,
among other things. This is where she ODs, and this is
where she finally "lets go of the dragon’s tail".
"What’s this place? Cold sterile light". Marie
senses a presence. Her guardian angel? More likely an
evolved human with a rare and genuine compassion for
less fortunate ones, who found her and brought her to
this hospital to convalesce, allowing her to "surrender".
Having more time to ponder the events that led her to
this "time and place", she thinks back of her
only unforced romantic encounter. But that didn’t end
well either. "He smelled like old spice and cigarette
smoke, always broke but somehow he always had coke".
Driving one cocaine induced night, she said "look
out, you better slow down through this underpass"!
But "he wouldn’t listen", and you know the rest.
She lost her only friend.
"Meanwhile, back at the shelter" that she had
visited more than a few times, things went on as usual.
But on this particular night, as "the rains fell on
Broadway" Avenue right outside the old, wooden,
weathered front door, another "guardian angel" appears.
Was it the same secular savior, our second hero from the
hospital there to save the masses, or was this new
defender of the unfortunate ones a transformed Marie?
All we know now is that the sun came up that day on
Broadway, and that Marie vows to "return again
someday".
But where did she go, where does her journey take her?
Fast forward to yet "another time and place". The
final time and place? A journey to the stars, a return
to where she was before time and space? Or has she
always been from another very, very far away time and
place? Put here to learn of the primitive hominids on
the little blue marble in a remote arm of this spiral
galaxy, always meant to return home and tell the story
of earth?
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